There are days when it just seems too hard to do anything. My mind gets flooded with all kinds of thoughts mainly past or future. Your left wondering how could I have come so far on my walk and be feeling like this or thinking like that. Honestly is makes no sense. The answer is quiet simple I have lost focus. It reminds me of the story of Peter walking on the water when Christ called him. Peter was doing just fine until he started looking around him…that’s when he fell. I realized a few things, I allowed the water to get in my boat, and when the water gets in, it in some way explains that sinking feeling. Christ responded where is your faith, I’m not sure if I was having or am having a faith crisis….maybe. All I know right now in this moment is to take a small step anywhere I can. To start the day by making a decision to be happy anyways in any state. To not rely on a person or something to change before I can be happy ( that would be giving your power away). To look back at how many times I’ve prayed for someone or something and God did bring it to pass. It’s not that God doesn’t do it. It doesn’t happen on our schedule that I know for sure. I’m seeing that it’s a process and sometimes the confusion or frustration maybe coming from not knowing exactly what step of the process you or I are in. So all I can say is keep pressing forward broken, frustrated, confused whatever it feels like to you and when your feel stuck try reading this: Philippians 3:13-14 ” Brothers, I do not count myself to have attained, but this is one thing I do, Forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to things which are ahead, 14 I press towards the goal to the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus”. Let the past be the past learn from it a keep moving it has nothing new to say. So lets wish each other well on a new day we may be closer than we think.